A year as a 40-year-old

I love dancing. Tonight we did a routine to Apeshit. It was a pretty dope routine. In another life I am a choreographer. There are so many songs that I hear and picture a dance in my head. I considering minoring in Dance in college. I took one dance class and dropped it. I was way too intimidated by the dance team type girls in the class. In my dance classes now, I don't give a fuck! There are some folks who are really good in the class but it's still fun. Also, I think I'm still a pretty good dancer. I really hope I can keep dancing for a long time. I do need to start working out more. I miss lifting weights and need to get back to it. I want to be stronger. And I want to lose more of the weight that I gained moving back home. I don't know why I'm so unmotivated. I know I need to go to bed earlier. Then I would feel more inclined to wake up earlier. It's still really hard for me to get out of bed. Fucking Lupus. Well no time like the present to get in bed. ...

Today I felt really anxious at work. I don't know why. I think I feel nervous when I meet with my boss's boss. I had to pitch a project I am working on. I'm also having trouble being energized recently. Actually, for the past couple of months I have been struggling with getting things done. I think it's because I am overwhelmed and it's challenging to get things done when there are a bajillion things to get done. Funny, I also need to hire an assistant so I can have help. But I need to find the time to even get someone hired. I know how to be better with goal setting and implementing intention...shit, I researched this stuff and got a degree in it. I just need to get my shit together. I think once I get past the next couple of weeks and complete these looming projects, I will feel better. I also need to work out more. That really helps me feel better. Now that July (gum surgery and the Europe trip) is over I will be able to get back into the routine. I'm loo...